I started my day today with an email from a client asking if I would change 50% of my agreed repertoire. The email came in at 8:39 AM. The gig set-up was at 4 PM. Obviously my client thinks I prepare nothing in advance. They don’t know me.
Several months ago, when I got the call for the corporate event, I asked all the right questions to get a clear idea of the audience and the customer: ratio of men to women, demographics, geographical origin, french/english ratio, will the conventioners be accompanied by their spouses, formal or not. And on and on. I do this so I can tailor the music for the event. That had been my specialty for over 10 years. I was the girl you wanted for a custom event. I would build the music, choose the dress, hair and make-up, all to coordinate with the event planner’s theme or decor even. I was really good at it too. Now that I am building something special with Marc, Bianca Basso, my interest is waning. Today I realized how important it is to be accepted for exactly who I am and what I have to offer. I have spent a great deal of my life customizing myself to fit to others around me. For a long while I liked it. It allowed me to do what I love, sing, and wake up with my kids every morning. I realize that I know very well what I am doing. I love who I am and I am at a place where I want to be loved for exactly who I am. Marc loves me for who I am and now I can't live any other way.
I am heeding Mr. Tolstoy’s words. I am changing myself in a way by deciding stop being what I think others want of me, but to be who I am. I am going to be true to myself from this day forward. I think my world is about to change because of it.
Namaste!
Bianca
P.S. I just want to say thank you to all those who write here and there. I really appreciate your words, your comments and the human connection!
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